I needed to take a little time off from my blog to finish my book, Bittersweet, (coming soon)... and then before I knew it, it was the Holidays, and then I had another surgery, and then it was 2018! Life happened and my Blog went on hiatus, but I am back to share my life after breast cancer!
Just yesterday, after a conversation with someone where I revealed that I was a breast cancer survivor, she looked at me perplexed and said "But, you look so healthy?!" I get that a lot. Maybe, because I am smiling, laughing and living or maybe it is because I get up, do my hair and makeup, put on something I feel good wearing and I keep going as if it never happened. But it did.
The funny thing is, a lot of us were really healthy when we were diagnosed with cancer. I had lost 25 pounds in the year before I was diagnosed. I was eating organic, doing yoga a couple times a week, swimming laps and really happy in my life. I would have definitely considered myself healthy, but there was a tumor growing in my left breast threatening to take away my life and challenging the notion of healthiness.
I don't know why I got breast cancer. It wasn't BRCA genes, it wasn't that I was overweight or drinking excessive amounts of alcohol, which I have read, put you at higher risk. I don't think I will ever know why...but, I do know that I survived and I am still here and I still consider myself healthy. Sometimes, bad things happen and it isn't your fault. When I get that comment about my health, I take it as a compliment, but it does imply that I must have done something wrong or why else would I have cancer? I am here to tell you, you can be healthy and have cancer. It sucks, but as my Dad used to say "Life isn't fair, get used to it."
I am going to continue to be grateful for every additional moment I have in this life and I am going to continue to believe that I am healthy. When I get that comment the next time, I am going to do what I always do, smile and say "Thank you, I am so glad to be here!"